Sunday, January 27, 2008

things really aint the same without you ard
i dun even hav the strength now.
esp with so many problems.
im no longer strong as i seem to before we r tgt
its u who melted my heart
and tell me to rely on you
now that u went army..
i cant rely on u anymore.
during my emo days..there wasnt anyone like you who will comfort me.
i really wish u were here!
come back soon! 10 days pls pass quickly and end slowly.
i need my protection..my kai xin guo.
waiting for you.....

fashionUwant wishhed*
9:41 PM

Saturday, January 26, 2008

yesterday was the first day me and dear were seperated
it was the 1st time we were seperated for 2 wks..actually nt really la..12 days
he will be back on the eve of cny..so hoping to c him
he ask me whether i wanna tag along his family to buy nian hua on eve. c how ba
i really miss him alot.
whole day tinking of the days wen we were tgt..
wen i will get sms every few hrs.
yesterday was nt so bad..he did sms me cus he was nt busy
the tough starts only today.. so i only receive an sms from him at 5.20am today
yesterday wen we were toking on the phone droplets of tears flow down..i guess he did too.
poor him has been missing his family and me..
we chatted a while on the phone before he needs to go and do some packing.
i guess this is really an obstacle for us ba..
y everytime we get seperated de?
i hope 2 years will pass real soon.
and hope we can be tgt forever.
i miss and love you alot dear! i hope u did too! :)

fashionUwant wishhed*
12:47 PM

Thursday, January 24, 2008

2 papers down..2 more to go!
had one of my most dreadful paper today
and i remembered that previous time i had this particular paper..
i had a nightmare of diahorrea that day. and was down with gastric flu
similarly..i had diahorrea today..bt only once..due to stress ba

dear is gg into army tml:(
i'll miss him alot! although i jus saw him few hrs ago
spend our last few moments tgt
2 weeks cant c him at all..stupid confinement
all the way until cny!
i hope cny comes soon! then i can get to c him agn le!
how sad can it be? wen i can only c him once a week.
and each day can only tok a while on the phone!
i'll miss his voice..and his hugss and kissesss!
hmm..our photo in my wallet tore..cus i shldnt have put it inside..
it stick onto the plastic..and wen i try to remove it jus now..it tore
now i dun dare to move it alr..dun make it worst
even if im gg to change my wallet..im gg to cut out the layer to keep!
thats wat i told him jus now!
i'll be counting down to the days wen we will c each other again!
and will be waiting for ur calls and sms every day!
i promise u i will never part with u again! :)
i love you!

hope my juniors who got their o level results are happy with wat they have
and goodluck to all those taking exams with me!

fashionUwant wishhed*
9:04 PM

Thursday, January 17, 2008

jus when everything doesnt go my way..
there is still a loving daddy mummy and da jie!

daddy could c my black face yesterday..and knew i wasnt in good mood
no matter how many times i cried...its still the same
but right now..im feeling a lot better. and have put things down
daddy even bought two boxes of sushi back jus to cheer me up
and thk me for doing the clothes today.
it has been long since he bought me sushi :)
I LOVE MY FAMILY! and i always do..
jus hope things can get better quickly.

thks for being there darling..
and also my cousin emily..who has been concern abt my family. :)

and last of all..i will only respect those who deserves my respect.

when i nv shout back at u doesnt mean im afraid of you!
im jus keeping my cool only.
so dun blame me if you push me to my limit!~

fashionUwant wishhed*
6:26 PM

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

im hurt. and im sure everyone is
yesterday was a hard night to slp
and a bad dream too!
i wish everything culd be normal..
back to usual..
but i guess its hard now!

heart shattered. tears rolling..
everything isnt the same anymore!
i guess this is the worst phase in my life
with everything being so complicated
wen i became so scared tat even dear cant comfort me
i tried to escape to lala land
but reality hits me with the truth
i try very hard nt to let it affect me
but somehow being a cancer im too emotional

i wanted to run away from home..
but then i noe my parents will be worried
i wanted to concentrate on my studies
but im too affected by emotions
maybe being a cancer is nt that good afterall..too sensitive
even when someone is crying over the phone i will cry tgt

i really wish i can have some peace to go thru my major exams for the next two wks
i wish there is somewhere quiet where i can study well
i wish dear wun have to go into army so that he can be by my side
i wish dear is on leave now to wipe away all my tears and give me a big hug
i wish he can put my heart back piece by piece using his TLC
i wish my family can be happy!
i hope time can heal all wounds and everything will end with happily ever after

i wish
i wish
i wish.......


i miss you dear!

fashionUwant wishhed*
11:11 AM

Sunday, January 13, 2008

hmm..yesterday was a wonderful but tiring day out!
went to sch on the early morning to do BLAW proj with cheryl and desarie
wah.the sch com lab all not open eh! in the end we hav to resort to ask a tcher to open a room for us to do.
finally completed 2 qns in 2 hrs!
and thats the end of the blaw proj...phew!
after that i came home...xiao yi and francine came my hse
chatted with them and ah yi went to help my uncle clean his hse
so i bathe francine and pat her to slp..
wah..had a hard time getting a 5 yr old ger to slp eh..
took me like half an hr of coaxing and patting
then i left my hse at 2 for little india to meet dear
reached there ard 3 and waited for his work to finish
we walked from little india to raffles city
the starbucks was damn packed!
then we ended in coffee club instead...
the mocha was nice! got ICE CREAM!
after that went to walk ard raffles city and city link b4 waiting for kun and kel to come
too bad waiwah cant be here for this gathering..GET WELL SOON!
we went suki yaki at marina sq..
had my filling meal of meats and yong tau foo!
after that we shopped and the two guys were like sitting down every now and then
morale of the story! DUN BRING GUYS OUT FOR SHOPPING!
we went to harry's bar at esplanade..first time bar-ing
had blue lagoon- sprite plus vodka plus smt else
and NACHOS!
kel's drink was damn strong..
we played finger guessing game..and also act and guess game
till ard 11 plus we left the place...
was v v tired..kun was like a bit nt steady le..lolx
she keep on laughing..but nt to the extend of drunk la
i ask dear send her home cus their hse nearer
and kel send me home!
on the bus saw chuan linn and ros! so long nv catch up le!
hmm..had a good day out and really enjoyed myself!
at least nt so stress le..
btw, my neighbour ask me to give her pri one daughter chinese tuition.
i was still considering abt it..any suggestions?
cus i scared i'll be packed with work and stuffs.
on the other hand its a good source of income during the working period cus my mum wun give me pocket money then
and i guess the pay for internship is good enough to survive me for transport and food only.
another advantage is that my chinese wun go rusty after two years of nt studying.
nevertheless..i still love chinese:)
summore dear gg army le..no one to tok to me every night.i nit to find smt to kill time as well
hmms..still pondering over it..
lets c how ba!
going to chiong studies this wk alr! COME BACK MY A's!
for all i want now is a happy family and a stable relationship..and of course... good results!

fashionUwant wishhed*
1:12 PM

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

everything is in a mess now!
family matters..
uncle in hospital..
endless projects..
upcoming examinations..
leo club stuffs..
dear gg NS soon..

someone pls give me a break!
im having headache this few days..
but din do anything abt it.
i dun like to go sch this wk..but still must attend..
not v efficient in studying..
promise i'll start to pia next wk alr!
i wan my GPA of 3.4 to be hit again!
but right now cheryl ask me aim for 3.0 first!
i got no confidence in MA2 alr.. hope can pass jiu hao le. or at least a C
next wk im really gg to work hard. no time to slack
i dun wanna forward module or anything!
i dun wanna disappoint my parents!
i want my family to be happy and healthy!
and i wan some peace for now....
but i noe i hav to complete my BLAW project first.
so..lets hope for the best!

I WANT EVERYONE TO BE HAPPY!

fashionUwant wishhed*
9:12 PM

Saturday, January 05, 2008

i am depressed!
and this time its nt becos of him.
someone pls give me some peace!

fashionUwant wishhed*
7:48 PM

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

jus as everybody was busy counting down to the new 2008
i was busy fainting at the marina bay
lols..i scared dear off yesterday
dunno issit becos i drank alcohol with an empty stomach or issit my low blood or my time of the mth
it cause me to throw up..and then nearly blank out.
i felt terrible..
maybe cus not enough air too cus there was a crowd.
but the fireworks are nice:)

before everything happens...
we went to marina sq to watch a movie.. AVP2
sitting at the second row is v terrible
the pics are moving so fast and making me giddy
we bought popcorns and coke
and before the show started..half of it was finished.
guess we were hungry and dint take dinner cus there was too many ppl
went to mac after that but couldnt find a place to sit
so we went 7 eleven and bought alcohol..and also cheezels
he suggested we shld celebrate and we r legally 18
then we went to find a place near the esplanade and sat down
opening one of those bottles. (we bought 2 and get 1 free)
he taught me finger guessing game..haha..and i always lose to him
only open up one bottle.. and in the end i throw up at the countdown
normally wun be like this de eh..i can drink 1 bottle of bacardi and nth happens
maybe cus empty stomach ba.
anyways.that bottle wasnt nice at all!
towards the end of the fireworks we had to fight hard to get out of the place
in the end still sit there and wait till the crowd is off.
then walk to take night rider home
i slept in his arms the first time..
from the part little india to my hse.haha
i guess i gave him a fright..and dun tink he will bring me for countdown again
last yr wasnt like that! lolx.
reach home ard 3 plus le.. then went to bathe and slp
the weather was so cold....
i had a good day with him:)

HAPPY ONE YEAR AND THREE MONTHS!:)

fashionUwant wishhed*
11:24 AM