Wednesday, May 31, 2006

jus came home frm accounts lecture
the tcher only lecture for 15mins and let us off alr
might as well dun turn up right
hmms..todae a series of event happen
making my dae like full of disaster
the first step i took out of the house..
i nearly fell frm the step..
lucky i grab the grilling of my gate in time
if not i wuld have sprain my RIGHT ankle tis time
yea..i check..nt swollen..jus a slight twist..heng man
if nt i wun be able to run or walk properly for another one mth
like tt time i fell in feb..totally one mth plus i cant walk properly
hmms..then i walk to the bus stop..saw adabelle
she was studying for her excel and microsoft test
i wonder wen is mine..
wat VLOOKUP and COUNTIF..wah..i hate the IF function
and tml there is ITAB first thing in the morning at 9am lor
alighted one stop frm my hse
and then din notice that it was red light
i saw a person walking so i wanna follow
then lucky i pull my legs back or else i wuld have been knock down
then now i wun be at home bt in hospital le
went for stats lecture
wasnt really paying attention..i really m moodless todae
after tt went for MOB..my marks cheer up my mood then
i got 21/25 for tt first CA.. which is 84%..a distinction
phew..at least it is way better than econs
we had tutorial..and also role play
my group is funny..and we laugh alot
hidayat even went to throw the paper till yujiang heartpain cus his paper tore
bt nevertheless we had fun!
and next tues gg to go to national library to do the MOB e-learning thing
went to foodcourt 4 for lunch
i had dory fish, two sausage and rice..
ceyang said it was the first time he saw me finish all my food..
perhaps i was hungry bahx
o ya..edwin wasnt here todae..wonder how is he
jiawen was too tired cus she went ktv yesterdae..
haha..can c her no mood todae also..v v tired
hope she score well for her jap test:)
like wat i said..accounts lecture only lasted for 15 mins
then i walk in the rain back home
it was a slight drizzle..with sun still shining brightly
hmms..i v much wanna go clubbing with the rest on sat wen ceyang ask me
bt then..i guess my parents wun allow one..ttx for sure
so..drop that idea bahx
i hate gg home early now.
cus i noe wen i face my mum and dad..they will nag non stop
arghs..y issit parents are always so naggy
i really cant stand them
alr im so tired.. yet i have to stand all those words
i began to hate my life now
hmms.i shall go and take a afternoon nap
then start studying for accounts alr
two more daes to hols..
shini..u must persevere!!!
bt my the other side of me is telling me im gg to be sick any moment
and i wanna curse the person who use tt marker during accounts todae
i dunno which brand bt my nose really cant take it
i sneeze like siao lor..so stupid! arghs.. im gg sleep now.bb

fashionUwant wishhed*
2:48 PM

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

i guess i wun be able to sleep well tonite
the right side of my stomach is aching rite now
guess its the result of eating too much
and i guess too much dumplings
plus alot of other food as well
i tink my stomach cant take it all at one go
suffering frm indigestion ba
it hurts now wen i move
maybe i ate too much that i din notice myself
and i noe i have a weak stomach too
everytime kanna stomachache one
hais..someone pls get the pain away now leh
im alr so tired and then if this pain dun go off i wun be able to sleep
dad has alr slept..so i cant tell him
and no one else is at home now
hmms..i wonder if this sat im still gg out with fanndly and the rest
or shld i go running with kun?
it seems like so long i din run le
bt i jus feel like running at this moment
and also to go to that swing where me and kun went
plus the place where me and waiwah went at causeway pt
i shall make a visit during my 3 wks break
now have to worry abt accounts test tis fri arh
lucky tis wk no choir..
bt i have to get the black top and pants by next thurs..another thing to worry
hais hais...
o pls friends..stop tickling me pls..
and ceyang dun push my head hor..ltr i go dumb!
he keep pushing my head during stats todae and i complain to waiwah thru msn
wat a scary experience in sch
bt with my friends ard..i feel that i dun have to worry abt anything
cus wen im with my class..i dun tink of anything else
i will jus enjoy the moments with them and forget everything
its only wen it comes to the end of the dae wen i start to feel lonely agn
bt i love the time i walk home alone..listening to music..
looking at the trees and scenes ard me
dropping by econ minimart to get chocolate
bt i noe im falling sick agn..
looking at the way i sneeze every now and then
and i nearly lost my voice in sch..a slight sore thoat la..i dun mean tt serious
yea..jiawen was right..i m v weak
with additional lbp..i become even weaker
i jus hope this wk is a happy week
a change frm last wk
and subsequently next mth is gg to be better than tis mth
and the following mth im gg to love it..
time really past so fast..so fast that u dun even realise it
hmms..i find junyang's sha sha de shui v nice
maybe i go and get his album
yes..tml my class end at 3pm
finally can get some rest
shall be off to do some packing..bb

wo yi wei wo de wei lai yi ding hui you ni
dan xian zai ni zhi neng yong yuan huo zai wo de ji yi li

fashionUwant wishhed*
11:39 PM

yesterdae i drank bacardi at home
feeling a bit hot inside...cus i dun drink usually
hmms..lucky i din blurt out anything..
jus finish watching devil beside u all the episodes
some parts are really touching
maybe i prefer this than mvp qing ren ba
hmm..im too bloated by dumplings now..
ate alot..hahas
todae sch was fine..got bullied agn
aiyo...can u guys stop tickling me or not
every now and then eh..
evil ppl XD
hmms..first lesson was stats todae at the lab
doing smt simple bah.
jiawen and ceyang was so childish inside there
i laugh till my stomach wanna crack alr
then i chatted with mund waiwah and kel over msn
after tt went for lunch break
jiawen told rachel my weak pt and she try tickling me wen we were walking..
wah..i bet alfred saw tt.. so pai seh
went to foodcourt 6 todae
ate pastry..cus nt really hungry
then shared french fries with jiawen
hahas..edwin treat me sweets agn..
din give jiawen.. cannot eat too much.
lols..after tt went to library to slack again
listen to songs..read teenage mag
then went for econs tutorial
pricilla was trying to tickle me
we struggle and got our heads hit by each other
wah..tt was pain!
hmms.. stupid ceyang played with my hair
and i su ku to edwin saeing i got wei qu kinda feeling
haha..mrs wang help me by telling ceyang nt to play
bt in the end he still play and tangle my hair as the way he wants
one thing goood is my hair will go back to its place and untangle automatically
then he was testing the strength of my hair..try to pull it..ouch!
if one strand come out he gg to get it frm me ok
got back econs test results
wasnt really happy bt at least i pass
bt at a lower grade..wells
last wk wasnt a good wk for me..cus..alot of things happen
i got worked up..plus pms..plus stress from the ideas project work
im practically like a crazy women...if that goes on
so i screw up the paper and i knew it will happen
bt thk goodness i din fail.and its 10% only
erms..after tt went for accounts lecture
nth much ba..jus listen lor..
shawn treated us cola..so nice of him
then walk home ba..the weather was so hot
bought lollipop and chocolate..
hmms.then watch devil beside you no. 19 and try to sleep cus i was tired
bt i din suceed..my mind was awake and thinking i guess
so i got up and carry on watching the last one..
ah mong and xiao yue finally got tgt..happy ending after all
they went thru alot of obstacles..and proven that they really love each other
its more like a true life story..cus some of it ppl may encounter
yebs.. shall go off now...update u tml bah..tata!

fashionUwant wishhed*
8:01 PM

Monday, May 29, 2006

爱情旅程



沙沙的谁

fashionUwant wishhed*
7:44 PM

todae was a happy dae in sch
a brand new wk..
hmms..yesterdae dint have good sleep
i guess i woke up ard 3.40am
went to the toilet
i started to hear cries of a small kid
accompanied by meows of cats
its really loud n it din stop
so i jus wanna check out wats happening thru my room's window
in the end i only saw a BLACK CAT
went back to sleep
down with slight flu..and slight sore throat agn
hack la..i dun wanna abstain frm any food now:)
hmm..mum woke up early to make those dumplings for duan wu jie
she's on leave todae and till now still making
i guess there will be alot..bt most of it will be distributed to my aunts uncle etc
and some to her colleagues at work
hahas.bt nevertheless..there will still be some left for me
i love the most tiny one..esp with sugar..so nice
hmms..i saw qiuli alot of times yesterdae
first was outside the classrm when im gg for MOB tut
then after tt was my break time
saw her at canteen
i dunno who grab my arm and then the next person i saw is her.hahas
walk past her alot of times
then i grab her neck wen she wasnt noticing.lolx
ate pig organs soup and then went to the library with edwin and weiye
edwin jiang li me for doing accounts hw by giving me sweets..haha
then he did his accounts and i ask him one qn abt tt
then went for EC..boring lesson
need to act out an advertisement
erms..accounts..sian also
ceyang nearly push me out of the lift wen we took the lift down after tt
lucky my friends grab me
and tt hidayat dunno wats wrong with him todae..kept bullying me
during MOB..EC and then after sch..
kanna hit by him alot of times
wah..i really cant stand the way ceyang grab ppl's neck
i felt so itchy wen he grab mine..i jus dunno how jiawen survived
hehes..accounts tt time jiawen was patting me to cool down cus i look stress up
had potato wedges after accounts..was hungry
then wen for econs lecture.. nth much happen
took bus home todae..wasnt feeling well and then v tired also
hmms..im gg to watch devil beside u episode 17 now..gg to the finale soon!
tatas!

fashionUwant wishhed*
5:28 PM

Sunday, May 28, 2006

its nice to have friends ard
at least there are ppl who really concerns u wen u r down
thks for letting me noe ur are still beside me..
that im nt alone AT ALL
even though we may nt be tt close anymore
sry for nt letting ur noe wats the thing that ive gone thru
ive decided to let tt problem go..
i promise ur i will be fine by next wk..
a brand new smile on my face again:)
right now i wish to save some memorable messages by true friends who cheer me up =)

by zhen:

♥~weizhen~♥♂[-] {mugging} says:
i dun always read blog but i read ur latest entry, i have no idea what happen. but just want let you know. if anything happens u still have us, still have me k. if got anything u can talk to me also. i may not be a good adviser but at least a good listener

by isabel:

pure chocolate..蛮 宫 () give me luck! says:
hey gal try to relax ok be too stress up

its so touching to read those heart warming messages
i love u guys
really sry for making ur worry
i will be strong..trust me on that
i wun cry as if its like 3 mins one drop anymore
it shall be a brand new start
time will heal all pain
and blow away all my stress
i hope to meet u guys out soon! ciaos =))))))))
shini will be fine by next wk!
i wun let dark clouds take over me anymore

fashionUwant wishhed*
11:36 PM

the rain really dampens my mood agn
hais.. i wish to be out now
really bored at home:(
i wanna change my blogskin for some particular reason
bt then..i like this skin alot
cus i cant find any skins that have pink and stars like tis
so i decided nt to change for the time being
meeting kun next weekend for running
cus she got camp frm mon to fri
im picking myself up frm where i fell now
and i felt much better than last wk
inside another deep dark hole agn
i will continue to walk on
so pls dun worry friends
i noe ur have been concerning me
whether issit on msn or my tagbrd
and i dun nit ppl to pity me also
if u noe the current situation im in
i will be strong..i will be immune!
i will take care of myself..
i wun rely on anyone now
i will get up all by myself
its ok..ppl do make mistakes
bt as long as u noe how to turn back
i shall be ok in another wk's time:)
and i will enjoy my holidaes
dun worry people...
esp kel kk ww tommy edwin jie etc..
i noe ur r with me..and wun leave me alone in times of darkness
thks for being there..really millions of thks
ur are the greatest pals ever!
and my 2 piglets at home tt really cheer my mood up
my pillow that is always there for me to hug wen i cried
hehes..so thks to mum who make it specially for me:)
im alright alr.. and i noe more smiles will be coming my way
yebs..so tats all for now..im off

fashionUwant wishhed*
4:18 PM

im addicted to devil beside u
kept watching it all dae
hmms..todae woke up at 8 plus
slept at 1 plus yesterdae
tok to kel n mund on msn
ehs..nth much ba
yesterdae went to west coast with mum to have dinner
i miss the western food there..
so i had fish and chips
then went to sheng siong
bought alot of stuffs..
we spent abt 80 dollars there..notice the amt of things we got
and then bring them all back home
todae my dae started off quite well
so im actually in happy mood now
hmms.went for breakfast with mum dad aunt and uncle
uncle gave me money cus he got his pension
he wants me to use it for education purposes
so i said i will pay him back wen i go to work
actually din wanna take frm him
bt then dad saes that its his hao yi
so i accept lor..
anyway..im nt in need of cash now
so even without tt money i can still survive
i jus wanna go shopping now
i wanna get things that i haven got
and my hols is jus one wk away
ehs.shld be e learning wk bt then we consider it as holidaes alr
then two wks of term break before i get back on 26th june
i went to the temple to pray jus now
hoping that everyone in my family is healthy n safe
hmms.going to do my accounts tut ltr
got test on fri
i hope that i culd go running with kun tis wk
i wanna train my stamina..and also exercise
bt i wonder if she is free..i jus miss her alot
and i miss elf too:)
and i hope to meet up with my fellow fouresixians soon
i really miss my class
cus that is ultimately the class where i felt so bonded
hmms..mum is making dumplings tml..so she is taking off
hahas..duan wu jie! i love her dumplings
esp the small small one..with sugar its really nice
i shall be off to watch devil beside you now!
im addicted..nth is more impt that this

fashionUwant wishhed*
10:37 AM

Saturday, May 27, 2006

jus as i thought i wuld have a peaceful sleep yesterdae
it all turn out to be the opposite
i wish that dream dint even appear in my eyes
that person has been like haunting me dae and nite
and i jus hope i wun even think abt anything during my sleeptime
NO! it jus appear..
i really hate it..i dint have a good sleep in the end
bt before that i had a nice time watching those stars
glittering in the nite sky
this is sort of the first time i c so many stars frm my hse
its really a nice scene and it calms my mood down
i made a wish..as usual..
bt i dunno whether it will be true or nt
stars stars..i dunno whether i shld like u or shld i hate u
i jus got my own reasons to support this
bt its a countless scene yesterdae..they r jus BEAUTIFUL
i culdnt use any words to describe
hmms..i woke up at 6 plus todae
and i slept back after tt dream thingy
woke up agn at 9 plus
i dunno how m i gg to spend my dae
went downstairs to get breakfast
then watch some tv and i started blogging
i jus wish that the next upcoming wk will be happier
and the next mth is gg to be a brand new start
im gg to be a little packed for my two wks hols
first coming up is the choir performance

VENUE: SP CONVENTION
DATE: 24th JUNE [sat]
TIME: 7pm
[tickets can be get frm any current choir members or alumni members..bt we dun have it yet..shall inform ur agn once i got the tickets]

there before that i wuld have rehersals coming up
i need to shop for the costume before 8th of june also
so many things i need to do lor
then still have the e-learning wk at wk 8
have to study at home..use com
do online test and online assignments
wahs..and next wk got accounts test on fridae
really sians..
my elder sis saw my nick on msn
ilovewalkingintheraincusnoonewillnoticeimcrying
she thinks that im crying
and ask me y
i jus tell her i din..although i did at some pt in time these two wks
im v v stress up..v v moody..pmsing alot also
bt i jus dun wan anyone to worry abt me
everytime i cry..i will make sure no one can c
cus i really dun wan ppl to pity me..
i jus wanna be alone..maybe jus that crying makes me feel better
thats my way of relieving things
yea..i looks like im a crybaby.. bt i jus culdnt help it
im jus too sensitive at times
bt after crying..im more or less feeling better
so jus let me be..bt dun worry friends
i noe wen ppl read my blog..they start to worry abt me
pls dun ok..it will jus make me feel bad
i will try to stay strong..
as much as i could
yea.i wanna go watch my devil beside u
it has jus finish loading..
yebs..so cya wen i have more updates:)

fashionUwant wishhed*
11:02 AM

Friday, May 26, 2006

o ya..i forgot to sae HAPPY BIRTHDAE EDMUND!!!
hmms..seems like todae my mood isnt any better bahx
i was jus trying to get some sleep after toking to ww and she left
and i thought i wuld be a peaceful one cus im really tired [mentally and physically]
then i saw this stairs scene..its jus so familiar
and the next thing i knew..i fell
at tt pt in time..my whole body jump on the bed
and i woke up eventually
i tried to calm myself down and slept agn..
bt i dunno wats the factor tt wake me up in less than an hr
really really bad.
its raining now
how i wish i culd walk in it
i miss my old palx..kun and ww esp
hmms.mum is buying dinner back
cus i gt no mood to go west coast to meet her
i jus hope tonite will be a dreamless night..no nightmares
i jus wanna sleep peacefully..
cus i nearly blank out jus now wen i went to the toilet
lucky i hold the side of the door and sit down in time
i really hate black images
i hope my lbp condition is nt worsening
yebs..thats all..i'll blog agn wen i feel better or maybe tml

fashionUwant wishhed*
6:41 PM

im eating a lollipop now..hahaS
like so child..i miss childhood daes..
no worries nth..jus happy happy and more happy
now..is sad sad and more sad
hmms..i woke up early todae..
8 plus..ive been so tired lately
and yet i cant sleep back alr
hmms..todae i woke up and watch tv
then till 11 plus i boil water for cup noodles
was chatting with ros wen i was eating
after tt tok to mund and tommy too
and also waiwah..
i suddenly miss causeway pt..
the place that me and waiwah got crazy..hahas
shall nt mention where issit
then i also miss the swing that me and kun went last yr
sort of alot of things im missing
hmms..wen for the one hr lecture
alot of peeps pon frm my class
its realli sian lor
and stupid ceyang keep disturbing me frm behind
he swing his hp here and there..then poke my hair
and i got so irritated that i turn behind and hit his hand
some of the guys were sleeping
my kor dint even help me one lor
c me being bullied by ceyang:(
and i walk back..took me abt ten mins
wen to econs to get chocolate agn..
and the lollipop im eating now..
its so waste of time to go there jus for one hr
hmms..im damn sian now
nth better to do..
waiting for mum to call back and go out for dinner leh
meanwhile..i will jus slack
perhaps take a afternoon nap ba
sians....

fashionUwant wishhed*
3:43 PM

Thursday, May 25, 2006

i dunno y i started to scream at my parents
esp my dad wen he came into my room and disturb wat im doing
i noe its rude and shows no respect
bt sometimes im really irritated by it
at times i really cant control my temper
im sry..
i dunno why my temper is so bad lately
im really a bad bad ger..
how i wish i was the shini back in sec one and two
so simple..so happy
i really hate myself now...
im nt in mood of anything
im reallyyy reallly tired....................................................................
how i wish everything culd jus end now.....

fashionUwant wishhed*
10:34 PM

yesterdae i had a nap in the afternoon cus i was damn tired
i set my alarm to 7pm
then wen i woke up..i jump..i felt v paranoid..
i dunno how to describe in words
i guess im really too stress with everything
guess wat i did. i quickly fold my blanket
then run to the toilet in the kitchen and on the light
before tt i pass by my parents room and found dad there
and i was tinking..y isnt he working todae..issit tt he din work up
then i started running ard the hse for my mum
and run back to my parents room and on the light of tt toilet as well
and then my dad was asking me wat i m doing..
and y is the light of the toilet in the kitchen on
till then i realise that it was night time and not daetime
m i really too stress??
or issit becos i really have so many upsetting things inside me
i really panick like siao cus i thought i will be late for sch as im meeting the rest at 8am
and i forget to call abel up also
arghs..enough of it..im really like a crazy mad woman now
i hate my life :'(
how i wish i wasnt born..
then i wun live in this world of sadness
and i jus dunno y i like to bottle things up on my own too
its jus my unique way of doing things.
so after wat happen yesterdae i went to study for my econs test which is todae
watch some tv to calm myself down
and had dinner at 9pm
dint really eat much cus im nt in mood
after tt i chiong econs till 12 plus wen my mum come home
and i slept till 6.40am todae
i was pretty lazy to get up.and i dialled many times abel's number
gave up and then wen to wash up and bathe
then call him again and wake him up finally
i guess i dialled his no. alot of times todae
really piggy!! lols..i hope u dun c tis
then rush off to sch and im the first to reach
studied econs since there is nth i culd do
dewei came and then follow by hanming and desarie
bt we dun have labtops or anything to start with
waited and waited for tt abel to come bt he din
ceyang and jiawen came along
then edwin too..
i was yawning and feeling v sleepyand i asked kind edwin to help me get coffee frm the foodcourt
then went for ITAB class
abel greeted good morning to me n the rest..wah..
so EARLYYYthen started lesson..
todae's one still ok..
early break and we went to foodcourt 4 for lunch
had carrot cake..then discuss abt the concept fan cus our grp haven finish
and econs i panicked alot and damn stress cus we haven finish our project
rushed to the library to finish up during the 2 hrs break
we manage to finish in time
went for IDEAS for the presentation
i felt so tense up cus its a formal presentation
wen it finally finish..my tension wasnt any better
cus i still got econs test
then went to T2165 for our exam venue
did the test and i guess i screw up some parts
wasnt really in good mood then
my mood worsen wen the bus is so damn slow
it took me ard 15 mins frm dover to my hse there la
traffic jam..arghs....really dampens my mood now
i dun care..tml im gg to sleep till late late then get up
im loosing sleep..insomia..its really torturing..
i hate this kinda feeling
im like a panda now..pmsing..moodless.
i skipped choir todae cus i have my econs test
i wonder how the practice is..

i broke my heart
for every gain
to taste the sweet
i face the pain

this is frm one moment in time..
one of the songs we performing in june 24th
arghs..im gg to complain alot wen it comes to my the other diary
i really hate my life now..
i felt so stress..more stress than o levels
i dun like tt feeling at all:'(

fashionUwant wishhed*
7:38 PM

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

jus back frm sch
v v tired..arghs..
i jus wish to have a good rest
life is so damn stressss...
problems keep coming up lately
and i jus dun wanna face them
my body is getting weaker as daes goes by
i dunno how long will i take to collaspe
anyways..i love my class alot
really had fun in class and forget abt everything.
first thing i did in the morning was to dial abel's no.
and then i din noe i have the headset attatched
was shock tt y no sound one
in the end wen i realise it i have to redial agn
he sounded like he's awake while im the one who is still sleepy
bt the thing is..he is still late...i guess he slept back..arghs..
i had a 'good' time chasing bus todae
took 166 there and back
hmms..the bus was squeezy cus of the morning crowd
reach the library jus in time and we began to scan things
then after tt do the ppt and went off for stats
the lecture damn sian lor
probability..isnt wat we alr learn in e-maths..its the same thing
u take out a red ball..then a blue ball..wats the prob.
then still got a bit of amaths..venn diagrams..
(A U B) lols..how i miss that..need some brushing up again
next wk got permutation and combination one.im looking forward to it:)
after the lecture ended..we were walking out of the room
stupid ceyang wanna strangle me
and i finally noe how thick his arm was wen he put it ard my neck
squeeze into the lift for MOB
then ceyang wanna scare jiawen and me by hiding
guess wat..HE SCARE THE WRONG PERSON..ahhahahaha
it was really comical and we all laugh till stomachache
the person stunned there for a min or two..lols
MOB was sian again...grp discussion all that
then went off for lunch
edwin was asking me if im ok again..cus he said i still seems so moodless
then we went to foodcourt 4 to eat
i had spaghetti again
bt nt nice tis time leh..too watery
hmms..din finish bt i had a cup of soya bean
after tt me and jiawen was disturbing ceyang wen he playing game
got one time he nearly grab my hand and bite lor..
haha..bt wanna bite i tink his teeth drop off first..
cus im only bones and meatless.
jiawen kanna bite alot of times..poor her
dreadful time walking back to SB
and we had accounts lecture
saw edwin's gf..really nice..hehe
accounts jus copy lor..nth much..
she din complete much also...
and then walk all the way to convention hall for the STD tok
damn sian lor..watch video and listen
i dint wan to go if nt for tt 2 CCA pt
and its COMPULSORY to go
lucky i catch the bus wen i get to the stop
wen to econs and bought chocolates agn
its so sinful...waste money on tibits
bt im really nt in mood so have to eat chocolate
i wish i culd take ice cream now:'(
anyways..i will be updating photos to my photo album ltr
so feel free to view..
webbie: www.memoriesforeva.shutterfly.com
its the photos that my class took during last wk's sakae plus da vinci
hmms..im gg to rest now
ltr have to chiong econs..gt test tml..boo hoo
IM SO STRESS!!!!!!!! tml got project at 8am too:(

fashionUwant wishhed*
5:05 PM

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

i didnt wanna wake up todae..looking at the alarm at 7am
bt i still drag myself up
pick my hp and msg abel to WAKE UP!!
he din reply so wen i folded my blankets..
i started calling him..and i scream into the phone
hahas.sleepy voice..it has been long since i called someone up before
its like sec 3 wen i last gave someone a wakeup call
haha.. then i got to bathe and changed
ate breakfast and watch tv
tt hanming forget to wake me up
bt he sms me c if im up or nt
in the end he told me he forget to bring the office cd
arghs..i search for blank cd in my hse to bring to sch
and i have to went home to take it cus im alr out wen were r on the phone
so im late to meet the rest
and as i expected..abel wen back to his dreamland and sms me sae he will be 15mins late
reach the library and found the rest doing hw
then me and dewei scan in the pics that hanming drew
its quite nice..v artisitc..i suddenly tink of ros..haha
after tt tiong loong arrive after me..
and abel finally reached..
we started discussing and then do the powerpoint in the library's com
then after that wen off for sheh's lesson..statistics
din quite understand some part
then ive got cramps again and i dunno y
wen i step out of the room..jiawen said my face was really white
and then i din have mood for lunch..use forcing method agn
doreen also c that i nt in mood...stupid cramps!
and edwin kindly treated me sweets..haha
after tt i drag myself to the class for econs..
my legs were tired
and all of them has seen my really pale face for todae
i shld have put some makeup
jiawen was afraid that i faint along the way
bt i jus sae i hack care..
after tt we started on econs..
did some grpwork..c those guys agn
my econs grp im the only ger
tt tcher grp one..
my grp got yujiang abel hanming and sebestian
lol..almost everytime i get to c abel and hanming in my grp
cus me and abel tok abt tt during the econs thingo
and we hope tcher change grp..haha..no la..our grp nt as bad
he jus dun like his MOB grp bt i like mine..
he sae his grp doesnt contributes much
erms..after tt we headed for accounts
i dunno wat the hell the tcher was toking abt
bt thk goodness edwin helped me by sitting beside me
explaining to me all those terms
then there was tis stupid spot check!
our class abit siao..we all wear our lanyards
to show class spirit.haha
in the end i took a stroll home after sch
was damn tired
i pop by econs minimart to get chocolate since i cant take icecream
my mood is still down for the time being bt getting better:)
and i tok to tommy jus now
ok..i frankly tell him im single la..its so bad to lie
and we chatted for a while and he left
yiling has been angry with him..hmm..i nid to help him out tis time
yebs..thats abt it..im toking to mund on msn now..haha
shall take some dinner and study ltr..
i really feel tired bt tml still have to do project
tt means..i have to wake abel up again..haixxxxxx
okies..shall be off..tataz.! have a nice dae everyone:)

fashionUwant wishhed*
7:00 PM

Monday, May 22, 2006

my cramps stayed with me thru the nite
ohhh.wat a bad night..
i was v reluctant to wake up in the morning
cus im really really tired..
haven been sleeping well for the past 3 daes
hmms..im feeling alot better now..so dun worry kaes
i went to sch as usual
and everyone started to ask me whether i got study mob
yea..i did..i tried my best to capture all the info to my mind
although i pretty dislike that subject
well..first lesson was MOB tutorial
really very sian cus the whole class wasnt in any mood
then we have break..
me and jiawen stayed in foodcourt 6 cus i wasnt really having the strength to walk
i ate only half a plate of carrot cake
i really wasnt in mood of eating and im like forcing food in agn
then after tt we guys wen to the library to study
acutally din study..was merely chatting.hahas
went for EC.. the class was really full of fun todae
we have gallary walk and we all started commenting on each other's message..haha
after that was accou0nts..sian again..
was studying MOB at the same time..todae gt test
then after accounts was econs lecture
wasnt paying much attention again..
waited for the test to begin outside MLT 11
lols..din noe ceyang was scared of tickling as well
me jiawen szeying and vanessa all tickled him at the same time
in the end he too revenge to the three bt nt me..haha
i manage to escape in time
they got bitten by him...eeeee
MOB test we were seated in lecture hall
the tchers v smart..set qns alternately so that we cant copy at all
like im having set B so the two beside me will have set A qns
my stomach groan wen i was doing the test
after tt still cant go home wen its alr 6.10pm
i still got to stay with my grp to do projects
so we went to the library..
discuss for the whole hr abt the shoe thingo
then tml i have to wake up at 7am to give abel a wake up call
i will make sure he wakes up!!!!!!!!
then sleep back agn till 7.30 when hanming gg to wake me up..haha
goanna do project at 8.30am tml..sians
and i jus got home wen its alr 8 plus without food
im like full frm hunger now
i wen to central jus now hoping to get the sausage waffles that i like bt the pasar malam is closed alr:(
so saddd.... i long to eat it agn..
wells..i gonna go off now to have dinner
then to rush my stats and econs hw which has to be in by tml..haix..
i miss freedom and holidaes suddenly
and i felt smt is missing now..i felt lonely
cus my dad isnt at home also..bt thats nt the factor...
okies..shall be off..bbies

fashionUwant wishhed*
8:23 PM

Sunday, May 21, 2006

i realised that i had real terrible mood swings todae
im sry arh..to those who had worry abt me
namely my parents and my sisters
i nv smile todae till jus now wen i tok to mum
and in the afternoon i got so lost..
bt im more or less ok after a nap
my cramps are better now
after mum applied medicated oil on my tummy
and now i m less loaded cus ive studied my MOB
although i cant gurantee that i will pass cus this is my first exam in poly
i wonder how issit like...hmms
i will try to regain myself..
although i may still be a bit moody or pms alot these few daes
pls leave me alone wen u c that in sch..i dun wish to hurt anyone's feelings
ive apologise to my kai xin guo for making him worry
yebs..like wat i told tommy...we shld live life to the fullest
to stop worrying abt things and learn to appreciate the ppl ard u
yeas..i guess ive blogged 4 times todae..
really mood swing..hahas..
i guess readers have alot to read..
im gg to rest now... tml will be a v long dae
i have sch frm 9-5pm
then 5.20-6.10pm is my test
after tt still have to rush my IDEAS project with my grp members
i wonder wat time i will be home then
gdnites people..sry for making ur worried during the past few daes
i love ur esp my best friends:)

fashionUwant wishhed*
9:55 PM

im really having bad cramps now
mum forbid me to take the cramp pills cus she saes its nt good for the body
i have to bear with it and only apply medical oil then
i really have no mood to study for tml's test
its like so many facts..so many definitions
and now im in pain like siao
i really cant stand it and i break down jus now
although i promise someone i will nt cry..
bt i really cant stand the amt of stress im in
im really a weak person..
i use to cry alot..bt i tried my best not to now
i even try to hold back my tears jus now
its the most unbearable thing to do
i guess i will be dead for tml's test
im nt fully well prepared
and my stupid cramp is making me no mood to study at all
i guess my sis has saw my moody face jus now
she asked wat happen and i jus sae im not feeling well
i really cant hide my expressions now
watever it is..jus let me leave in my own lala land for two wks
cus these two wks there r test and project
and i guess i will have a break after tt and i can do all i want to cheer myself up
i really miss ice creams now..bt i cant take it
i shall be off to study again...
-

edited..
the worst thing i did todae was to force food into my mouth during dinner
cus im totally nt in mood to take anything since im like in pain like hell
bt then i dun wan my parents to worry..so
i resort to pushing in food to my mouth..and took minutes to chew it before swollowing down
my dad culd c tt i wasnt in mood and ask me wat happen
i really hope the pain will stop
cus i need to concentrate on my revision for tml test
i really nid that 100% concentration
someone pls help me get the pain off..
i really cant stand it anymore..
it has been like tis since 2pm...ive suffered enough!
bye..im off to study agn.. :'(

fashionUwant wishhed*
5:25 PM

i find that im like blogging more now
becos too many events is happening ard me
hmms.. ive set my diary in mydeardiary to private
cus i dun wan anyone to view it anymore
i rather leave that place as the place wen im gg to write wen im sad
i dun wan anyone to c me on my weaker side here
so this diary is only meant for my happy moments with all my friends
previously it was semi private cus some of my friends out there can read my thoughts
bt i began to close my heart again
cus wen its open..i get stabs and left alot of wounds..
i dunno wen issit gg to be open again
perhaps wen im ready
meanwhile..im living life as it is to be
waking up every morning feeling the same
and having a hard time to get back to sleep every nite
i tink i will become a panda soon..very very soon
yesterdae i really cant sleep
its like im feeling so warm..my body temp is like v high
then wen i went to adjust the fan to a higher speed
i felt so cold and i cover myself with a blanket...and i felt v hot.
its like there isnt a temperature suitable for me to sleep in.i felt so irritated by it
and my mum jus scolded me for nt eating finish my porridge
i left half a bowl of it on the table...
its nt that i dun wanna eat..its really im nt having any good appetite now as i have said in the previous entry
9.33fm is playing waiting for you now..
its such a sad song..
and a sad weather cus its raining...
toking abt songs..ive changed my blog song to zhen de by angela zhang shao han

tian kong tu ran yi pian liao kuo
yuan lai ni shi zhen de yi jing li kai wo
zai wo bu shou xi de shi jie guo xing de shen huo
bi shang yan rang lei shui hua luo
ci ke ni yi zhen de yong yuan li kai wo
zai ling wai de ge mei you wo de shi jie
zi you de zou

yet another sad song..suits my mood now
i guess my left ear really got some problem
it hurts now...
and wen i sing in choir or like listen to music via my earpc
i will hear a zzzzzz sound..its really irritating
tml is sch again.i wonder how will my mood be
cus tml got MOB test..then thurs got ECONS test
plus my grp need to hand up IDEAS project by thurs and present it
im really having a bad headache now.
i culd feel that the pressure is pushing me
poly life aint tt great after all
i began to ask myself have i make the wrong choice...
bt ive alr make mine..so i have to persevere in it
now i jus need some motivation to study well
i hope holidae comes soon and give me a break...
im really really tired...
sometimes i dun even wish to hold on........

fashionUwant wishhed*
11:36 AM

Saturday, May 20, 2006

im full frm dinner at beautyworld
i dunno y i notice like im eating lesser and lesser everydae
culd it be tt the food doesnt interest me anymore
or culd it be tt im jus down for the time being
one thing i noe is that i will definitely have weight loss if tis continues
and im like now 42kg.. which is alr considered skinny
ive never fall below that before..as in wen im 1.67m tall
so i hope i wun loss weight cus its jus so hard to gain them back
bt really i do get full v easily now
like yesterdae..6 plates of sushi culd alr fill me..
its really too little.. i guess on other daes i culd go up to like 8 or 9
then breakfast i had a small packet of milk plus half a pc of plain bread
i culdnt believe that i jus ate half a pc now
lunch i sorta skip cus i din really eat much at MI
i only had the kachang puteh, one cup of coke float and a malt candy
thats all ok.. and i din feel any hungryness inside me
dinner i thought i will eat more
in the end is jus one small plate of rice with some other dishes
i can always eat until like i can even help my mum finish up her rice if she cant
and half a cup of sugar cane juice actually make me bloated
i thought of binge eating bt i guess i culdnt do it
im really cutting down on my food now..
intensive loss of appetite
and i skip dinner yesterdae nite..
im feeling so tired nowadaes
so many tutorials..test..and idea project
stress level building up
i wuld go crazy any moment if this continues
im even stresser than having o levels now
and i really culdnt fall asleep..
even if i can..i will wake up exceptionally early
like 7am or 8am
like todae i plan to sleep till 10.30am
then i wake up like 8 plus
time really past so slowly todae
i got flare up doing the accounts tuts
cus i noe my answers doesnt tally..
the thing doesnt balance..and i dunno where i got wrong
i really feel like banging my head on the wall wen i entered the lift jus now
and i wish to erase part of my memories so that i wun tink any further
maybe ive really made a wrong choice abt gg to MI todae
i shld have stayed at home
im really really tired.....mentally and physically
i may collaspe any moment..
and stupid lbp pls stop haunting me wen im alr in my weakest state
i wish everything culd jus end now........

fashionUwant wishhed*
7:53 PM

im back home frm MI carnival
wows..it looks like a huge event there
with ballons and everything
food games and watsoeva
i really enjoyed myself
thks peeps!
i saw alot of familiar faces there
eddie layhwee kenneth rachel and others
of course i c ppl frm my class
peeps like saf, lee, jason, alfred..hahas
me and jason was toking abt which foodcourt in sp is nice.
he always goes to 3 while i always go 4
then alfred was telling me i always c him with alot of gers..hahahs
i ate a little bit of things todae
morning i had plain bread plus vita soy
then at there i had coke float..kachang puteh and malt candy
wow..i had a hard time with the candy
i got qned by syahidah in the cafe
anyways.im ok
then after tt i met ELAINE!!!
so long nv c her..
she asked me y i din go ij wen i actually wanted to during tt period of time
bt i still prefer poly life ba
hmms..i miss the swing so much suddenly
bt wen i sms and called kun..she nv reply or answer me
so i took the bus back to clementi and walk back
on the way drop by ww's hse to pass her the stickers
then i walk home

to waiwah:
thks for asking me wat happen outside ur hse jus now after u read my blog
sry tt i din wanna tell u wat happen
becos i tink its better to solve it myself..
nt tt i dun trust u [to all my other friends who care for me as well]
i jus wan...some time alone..i will be alrite i promise
so u guys dun worry abt me ok..
let me be selfish and nt share with ur for jus once
u will be my BEST BEST friend ever!!!!

and to the person who feels guilty:
its nt ur fault..
nth happen so dun feel that way
i hope u read that sms i send u
anyways..its the same thing here tt is if u read tis

yebs..thats all i wanna sae..
anything jus tag on my board or sms me if u have my number
i will surely reply ur!
thks...love u all.. :)

fashionUwant wishhed*
4:20 PM

Friday, May 19, 2006

i love class outing!!
yea...dbf 22 really rocks!!
todae was jus another dae for me
bt i woke up exceptionally early
cus i culdnt really sleep
i tot the flu med last nite and i guess i slept ard like 2
then todae like 7am jiu wake up liao
nth to do.. i took my MOB and started studying for the coming test
trying to occupy myself with watever ways i culd
maybe im running away frm sum things now..
bt jus let me be at least im happier for this moment ok?
i tried to sleep back but i cant
then bought breakfast and ate
not really much of appetite
do some housework at home before batheing and gg to sp
went to help waiwah make the sticker thing
then walk to SB for MOB lecture
after tt our class went to LOT 1 for class outing
im really nt in mood for anything todae
bt somehow i try to pretend i m..im like hiding my true self todae i felt
i ate 6 plates todae only
and i find the rice getting more and more sour
took pics with my class peeps.
and then after tt some ppl wen to the toilet
i was jus looking down to the ground floor
tinking abt somethings and somehow..edwin notice tat i wasnt happy todae
he asked me why bt i actually din wanted to tell him
bt in the end i gave in and told him the whole story
and he was the only person i told abt wats happening on
cus i really dun wish to let anyone noe abt it..i dun wan ur to worry
he consoled me and ask me nt to cry
cus he sees that my eyes are alr starting to tear
at least wat he said did cheer me up a little
so we went to watch DA VINCI as a class
before tt the gers wen to take neoprints..
i love those we took todae
the movie was nice..except some parts i really dunno wat its abt
bt i jus watch on..the room is damn colddddd...
then after the movie the gers went toilet
some of the guys went off and then i guess edwin was the one who waited for us
maybe he experienced it before thats y he culd tell me so much
btw..hes attatched..
bt its good to have a friend like him
to give a pat on ur shoulder to sae its alrite.
although he noes that during the movie..i may forget everything
bt after the show..everything will come back
i took mrt with the rest at ard 9pm
then i alighted at my stop and bide gudbye to them
walked damn slowly home
listening to songs...
and watch my tv show before coming online
sadly no good friends is here
i guess im gg to do some tuts before i go to bed
then tml can go MI carnival
i love u guys! thks for making my dae happier :) i will be alrite..sooner or later
and millions of thanks to EDWIN! my dae is really better after wat u said..

fashionUwant wishhed*
10:31 PM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

my flu isnt well yet
todae was damn bad mood in sch
im sorry my friends..bt i jus cant find a way to cheer up
at first my mood was okay
then after the ITABS lesson..i began to feel so uneasy
like im so worked up inside me
i jus dunno wat is gg on..perhaps im jus pmsing
i really hate tt feeling
and i noe who ever come and bother me will get it real badly
thk goodness no one did..cus i dun wanna be mad for no reason
and jiawen was cooling me down cus she noes im nt really happy
thks ger! lucky u r with me..
then after tt we went for lunch
my mood became better
hmms.guess who i saw?
MIAO JUN..my best friend in pri sch
we sorta lost contact after she move hse.. in pri 3
i will never forget the every recess we spent together:)
then i began to cheer up.
and finally i was in mood for everything after a cup of chocolate ice cream
hehes.. after tt went to the flea market there
bought myself a necklace..the one tt i like yesterdae
then printed my name on those stickers..they r so cute
after tt rush back for IDEAS lesson
hmms.i sung with desarie the yuan dian
gt 4 participation marks
then george wants our class to sing lao shu ai da mi with passion
lols..he stop us after a while.
then we sing again this time with guys one line gers one line
and we passed the test
so everyone gt 3 more marks..hehe
after tt we were put in grps agn to discuss abt our new product thing
hmms..our grp doing smt on shoe..hee
and i find it nice if there is really one
went for choir...
i guess my ear got some problem alr
keep on hearing zzzzzzzz...sound
not the sleeping one.. bt its unpleasant
after tt went home...
went downstairs for dinner with aunt uncle dad....
francine was there too..
she keep on playing with me..hahas
stupid tv is spoilt again
yebs..ttz abt it todae..
tml gg sakaeing!!!
shall update more tml..and hope i wun be moody!

fashionUwant wishhed*
7:59 PM

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

omg..my flu is back again
sneezing like siao..
wonder who's the one doing behind my back
cus ppl sae u sneeze once..is ppl curse u
twice is someone miss u
thrice is someone love u..hahas
bt i always gt that habit of sneezing twice..
maybe thats how my body works
todae was feeling damn tired in sch
I HATE PIMPLES! esp wen u gg to have......
i shall nt mention tt word
i washed my face jus yesterdae afternoon wen i get back frm sch
and at night wen i face the mirror
i saw nt jus one but THREE appearing on my face
sobbies..im gg to get rid of it fast..thks to jorubi gel:)
and thks to my sis who gave it to me
stop appearing pls..i hate it..
and that relative u wanna come faster come eh..
i rather go thru the pain now then to suffer next wk wen im having so many test:(
todae we have stats lecture..wah..damn sianx.
that is my most hated lecture
bt on the good side..i saw some qns abt amaths..muhahahah
and it is PERMUTATIONS AND COMBINATIONS!
okies..i swear i goanna practice hard on it..cus it sort of includeds probability too
which is kinda confusing i tink
after tt we sqeeze into tt stupid cramp lift to level 4
and climb like a tortise to level 6
and guess who im sitting beside..that hanming agn
i was giving those ' u again' face
everytime grp discussion always c him
and then we both said the same thing wen the tcher ask..
jiawen was like saeing fated..lols..
anyways..we discuss abt the tutorial thing..get it over with
then had lunch at foodcourt 4 agn
i tried smt new..bt i tink my tastebud is nt working well todae
i dun taste anything outta it..except a bit of chao da.
nt salty nt sweet..
i dunno wat it taste like
hmms..there is like a small flea market gg ard near the convention hall there
i saw a necklace i like..its a star...transparent but got a bit of blue glowing
im gg to get it tml cus i din bring my wallet..was only gg to the toilet along the way i saw
15 bucks!!! hehes..any maybe printing my names on those stickers then i can paste everywhere:)
so much of things i wanna buy there..bring more cash
and i hope my atm card can work by then
accounts lecture again
damn sian..i was sitting at a chair without table
i have no mood to write lor
anyways..its nt much of problem to me abt accounts now
i started to like it..bt nt the lecturer
then i called dad to fetch me home cus i dun wanna walk
the sun is so bright tt will darken my skin
i lazy to take bus also cus its only one stop..and then still have to walk
im really tt tired tt i kept yawning non stop
so i came home and slept my afternoon..hehes.
and dinner was..chicken rice..im sick of it alr..last wk had it..this wk again
bt my dad wants to eat it..too many chickens recently
i wanna eat some mutton satay:)
hmms..06s6 will reunite tis sat..MI carnival..who's gg????
i miss my class alot..my friends too..hehes
that includes those in my og grp and other friends frm other classes
and the school..plus..mrs choy..econs tcher!
hehes..its so fun..
tml having a long dae again..wat the..
9-5pm plus i having choir..so it will be till 7pm:(
nxt wk cant attend cus i got test..haix..econs arh
supply demand market equilibrium
ok..i better stop here and take some rest..i really cant stand sneezing!

fashionUwant wishhed*
10:19 PM

Monday, May 15, 2006

todae was like monday blues..
i was reluctant to get up for sch bt i have to
drag myself outta bed and went to refresh myself
mum cooked prawn bee hoon for me..lols
im still nt sick of it yet..its jus nice.
and i ask mum to cook laksa sometime this few wks
i miss her laksa and mee siam
and many more others like chicken rice..nasi lemak
have to admit my mum is a good cook:)
lols.bt i dun enjoy cooking..so i hardly step into the kitchen
todae MOB is doing problem based learning
continue on the second part
hmms.. our grp is like ever joking.
can tok frm maple to gunbound
hmms..tt hidayat took my bag away agn
wanna c wats inside..hais..let him take la..
i got my hp with me can liao..he always like to read my inbox
and im the type that dun delete sms till its full
after which we had a break
went to eat sheng mian at foodcourt 4
then after tt went back to BS
went to library cus my oral is at 12.30pm
sat down with jiawen and edwin
jiawen was in a bad mood todae.. i hope she feels better now
edwin is kind enough to share his mp3 with me..hahas
cus i was damn bored by then
then jiawen went for her oral while i stayed a little longer
my oral is abt yellow ribbon project..i jus crap with the tcher
jus hope to get good grades of course
then we all waited outside the room for everyone to get tested
a lot of tchers pass by and we said hi to them..lols
after tt went for accounts tutorial
hmms..wasnt really listening cus she is jus gg thru answers
instead..me jiawen and hanming were discussing abt econs.
i tink my accs is okay now..jus maybe to do it faster
practice make tings perfect that is..
and econs came..
lols.i din noe amaths can be in econs..
and it is CHANGE RULE! lols..differentiation
haven been doing tt for a long time
dewei was saeing we got advantage..
and i cant believe hanming got A1 for it..
hahas..bt i really do love amaths..
hmms.. shall be off now..i got tutorials to do..
bbies.

fashionUwant wishhed*
7:55 PM

Sunday, May 14, 2006

perhaps yesterdae wasnt really a good dae for me
i have a series of nightmares and woke up a few times in the night
and guess wat..my right eye is in pain now
there isnt signs of swollen or anything
starting frm fri nite it has been like tis.
sigh.. dun make me go back to the specialist agn at sgh pls
i did one qn on accounts yesterdae
journal entry plus ledger plus trial balance and then to closing account
wah..that took me a long time to finish eh.. i jus hope it wun happen like tis in exam
which is coming up..i tink..wk 6
then still got econs and MOB exam...stress is coming
tml i got english oral..haix
mum is cooking prawn mee todae..smells nice frm my room
lols..i went to the kitchen jus now to drink some water
and my mum noes wat im tinking of..hahas
she put 2 prawns in my mouth cus she is slicing it..lols
and then keep inspecting me cus she noes i like to eat a little of everything
she stop me after i ate a few more cus she said i may finish the whole plate before everyone comes..lols
i maybe gg genting during the hols..
i miss that place..seems like ages ive been there..keke
and then im gg hk end of this year
yes..i can shop like siao..go disneyland..hehe
i wanna go places like esprit and also haggen daz..
Theirs is a double storey one..
maybe aunt and uncle plus francine joining us
her first time taking plane.lols..
i took mine first wen i was 6 mths old..can u believe?
i sorta forget the experience..
hehes..im gg off now...
tata people!

fashionUwant wishhed*
11:21 AM

Saturday, May 13, 2006

haix.wat a unlucky and bad dae for me
it started off with me waking up at 6am
then i was gg to the toilet at mum's room.
guess wat..i was half awake then and i tried to push the door
i tot i alr open the door and i went in..din noe there is actually a door stopper on the grd
and then...i hit my face against the door
damn stupid right......
i almost cried out okay..the hit was huge
the whole door vibrated i could c wen i fully awake myself after the bang
and my mum was sleeping so soundly that she din wake up
tears really flow down my eyes..bt i wasnt crying
my nose was in deep pain..take note my nose is sharp one..
got a pointed bone if ur notice..
that was awfully painful
and part of my lips went red
like blood was gg to come out any moment..
i attempt to wash off the blood bt then it din bleed
so now my lips are still red if u culd c :'(
hate that stupid door stopper 1002034845729 times.......
arghs..i tot it was over wen i went back to sleep all the way till ten am
went to mac with my mum..and ate hotcakes
and i tot the weather is good..so i wore the m]phosis slipper out
lazy to wear sandels to jus clementi central la
and it started pouring heavily
me and mum had a hard time gg home..
and on the way back..i fell to the ground.
thk goodness i din injure any part of my body..esp my ankle which i injured in feb
damn suay..
haix.. i will make sure im more alert the next time
and dun ever wear m]phosis slippers out on wet daes.it will make u fall
i experience tt alot of times..
bt i still like their black slipper
hmms..i went for the interview for cscc todae
wasted my bus fare cus its like 10 mins only
and the place is so hot..haix
im gg off now. i jus hope wun happen agn... :((((((((

fashionUwant wishhed*
7:56 PM

Thursday, May 11, 2006

todae was happy cus class starts at 12pm
bt was unhappy cus i wasnt feeling well in the morning
and it had been like tis for daes..wonder wats wrong
hmms..i bought beancurd to eat cus i wasnt in mood to eat anything
bt then i have to eat or i will faint cus of lbp
then went to sch for econs lecture
so many graphs todae.
and the tcher was fast..i din really listen bt copy
after tt our whole class went to foodcourt 3 for lunch
i had western food..chichen steak.
it was salty.lols
i din finisht the fries all tat
after tt took a long time to go back for george's ideas lesson
todae got the 60s performance..some went up
wells..i din cus my voice haven recover yet..next wk ba
still coughing..lols..
i guess i wun recover cus i keep on eyeing on food
food that i m nt suppose to touch..haha
we were brainstorming for ideas.
something that hasnt been invented before..
hmms..i pretty like the shower head with light tt he showed to us
it looks nice..and romantic at nite.
showering in a dark room with light coming frm ur showerhead.
a bit of melancholy touch cus its blue
i wish to have tt at my hse in future..hahs
and i wanna ask y issit hanming always in my grp..lols
frm MOB to econs to now..ideas..
econs and ideas we dun get to choose one.
anyways..my kor kor in my grp too..haha
no choir todae so i took the bus home straight after
wen i alighted it started drizzling
i hack the rain and walk thru it..
lazy to use umbrella
after tt play maple and then went for dinner with my dad
wah.the ee mian very salty..i dun like it
and it took so long for the food to reach me
hmms..i gotta go off now..
stupid mosquito went to kiss my face and leave a stupid mark there..
i hope mask will help to take it off my face quickly...
bb.. -jiawen..dun tickle me pls-

fashionUwant wishhed*
11:05 PM

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

todae was jus another normal dae
woke up frm a dream..bt i forget wat issit abt alr
smt to do with my sis tat is..
i tink is becos i got so fustrated at her keep on borrowing my clothes
yea..i do that sometimes..bt in the end i still let her borrow la
hmms..stats lecture was boring..lols
me and jiawen was like..-_-
lols..bt my kor in class is still attentively listening to the lesson..
he is sitting beside me btw..
my class make a lot of noise for all i noe..hahas
and there is like 'bomb' in the lecture theater..lols
u shld try and listen to the sound..it really sounds like a bomb is gg to explode anytime
me and jiawen was wondering wen will we die..lols*touchwood*
bt that sound is damn irritating
then after tt we went to take the lift up to level four
and climb two flights of steps to level 6
sumone was so playful that he pushed the drinks which happens to be at the stairs down
lol..i shldnt mention the name cus..hahas..will get him into trouble
i wonder who is the unlucky one who kanna the drink..lols
then was MOB tutorial
we had winter survival PBL
and the least expected turn out to be the most impt..lols
i guess i wun be able to survive..put most of the choice wrong..
then after that we had break
went to foodcourt 4 again
i ate the same..spaghetti with fish
tis time..the aunty is veri nice..gave me half a chicken to try
and the other half goes to my kor..lols
all becos of me he got advantage as well..
cus the aunty recognise me..
cant finish my food..i gave my fish to ceyang and chicken to edwin to try..lols
guess wat..my kor ate another plate of noodles..he culd eat so much..amazing.
ceyang suggested to go sakae next fri after sch..i sae..set arh!
i long for sakae:)
hahas..then after tt went back for accounts lecture
wah..i cant stand it lor
i really dunno wat the tcher is saeing.
i jus try to act to understand
actually i anihow do la..
wat balance carried down..balanced b/d
then i walk home after sch..save bus fare..lols
i enjoy walking alone sometimes..
can exercise..wun get fat!
mum was abt to leave the hse wen i enter..
then watch my xue tian shi..sis record for me.hehe
after tt play maple..lols..i died twice todae
so stupid..forgot to change potion..
and then com lag..haix
bt i level up alr:)
shall play maple with my class peeps
party quest.hehes
i wanna be cleric..
okies..i shall be off now..bbies. wanna watch tv le.
-jiawen..pls dun tickle me can?* giggles.

fashionUwant wishhed*
10:23 PM

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

can someone bring back the real smiles in me?

back from sch
todae started at eleven
bt im still reluctant to get out of bed
and the first thing i got in the morning was a bad tummy ache
i guess its becos of too much air..
my stomach really cant take air..and of course..air con!
so i usually use two blankets wen i sleep..one jus to cover my tummy
it has been like a habit..since young
went to sch as usual..
i waited for the bus for a long time before it arrived
then went for stats.
the lesson was boring..bt we were let of 15 mins early
went to foodcourt 4 agn for lunch
i ate chicken with egg and rice
the rice they put curry...so i did nt finish the whole plate
i noe my stomach cant take it.
after that went for econs tutorial
i really dunno wat the tcher is saeing todae
perhaps im nt even in a mood la
ive really lost my econs concepts in MI
the supply and demand..esp the market equilibrium
maybe i shld do some readup on my previous notes
accounts was another one i have problems with
the tcher is really gg to fast lor
she tinks that everyone has accounting backgrd like dat
a two year module in sec sch has been compress to a one year in poly
its like a train..haix
regret nt taking accs in the past
bt i jus love amaths..
maybe i jus need time
and i need to find someone to coach me..
anyone kind enough?
ive got a test coming up in few wks time.
econs too..can die le..haix..
sobbies..i sorta feel like crying wen i got out of accounts lecture jus now
i really dunno wat the teacher is saeing todae
even jiawen dunno wat the tcher is toking abt wen she has acc background
i guess she can do it on her own without listening ba
while i have to try to struggle with it till i find help:(

fashionUwant wishhed*
5:31 PM

Monday, May 08, 2006

i din noe that the MI carnival was being postponed to 20th may
lols.i tot i wasted the money of buying the coupons
actually nt the money that matters
is that thats the only dae i will get to c all my friends
and have a chance to step back to MI campus
i really miss that place though
although it seems like a bit old la
bt then it contains alot of memories
memories of my friends and i
rigel 5 members as well as 06S6!
people like elaine..xinni..saf..rina and syhidah
they never failed to bring smiles on me
and our class gathering at ecp
its so fun!
i will never forget the daes i had with them
bt too bad i cant c jeremy anymore cus he is in US currently
the rest of the class can jus meet up
i hope u come back and visit us soon jeremy:) we will miss u *if u r reading tis*
i long for that dae to come..hahas
-
these few daes i have been at home
mostly doing tutorials..playing games..watching tv
my cough is still not recovered
it has drag on for one mth alr..
bt i tink its recovering alr
after taking mum's med..mine has finish
the thing is..the med is suppose to make me drowsy
bt in the end i end up more awake
wierd isnt it..hahas
maybe my mind is jus very active
yesterdae mum came to slept in my room
cus i got aircon..hahas
dad dun wanna on his cus his leg pain
bt mum wanted air con cus the weather was hot
-
todae i kanna bullied by my class peeps
first was hidayat
he wanted to take my bag
at first i was jus tinking that he c the things inside only
then guess wat..he took my hp out
and attempt to open the inbox and look at the names of the messengers
and seeing one name repeatedly appearing..he wanted to open it up
i was like..NNOOOOO
maybe i shld delete all my msgs in my inbox before he opens..lols
hanming also the other helper of him..
and both were sitting in front of me and jiawen
i tried very hard before i got my hp back.lols
and thk goodness they din c any contents inside..secrets..lolx
MOB lecture started..and im the presenter todae for my grp
phew..was quite ok
after that we had break..went to foodcourt 4
i had spaghetti with FRIED fish..
and jiawen was showing a no-no to me..
bt i still ate it.hahas
someone was eyeing on my fish..lol
i gave edwin some to try..and he gave me his chicken
tasted nt bad too..next time can try that stall
then went back for EC..
did oral todae..in grps.next wk gt test alr
sianx..
after that was accounts..my most dreadful time of the dae
bt we were let of early..went to foodcourt 6 to rest
stupid ceyang tempted me with the potato wedges
he wanted to give me one bt jiawen said NO
in the end everyone got except me:(
and he even wen to show it in front of me..
keep flashing the potato wedges in front of my eyes..
bt i din eat at last
wen for econs lecture and took bus home
mum cooked chicken rice todae..it was nice:)
i almost ate finish the rice..lolx
jus now did finish stats tutorial
and now its econs time..wen issit gg to end:'(
shall go off now..hahas.tml sch starts at eleven.
dun have to get up so early liaox..bbies.

fashionUwant wishhed*
10:32 PM

Saturday, May 06, 2006

yesterdae was quite a happy dae
everything jus goes smoothly as wat i thought of..hehe
went for accounts tutorial
and i got called twice la..
okies.. then went to mob lecture
was damn sian cus i was sitting alone
most of the seats were taken up alr so me and jiawen have to part
then we went to foodcourt 3 to eat and chat till 5pm before she went for her jap drum training
i mustnt let her get my hp..if nt she will be a spy for someone..lolx
and i will be in danger..watever i dun wanna do..eg eat..she will sms and complain..
looks like im watched everywhere i go..better be careful
then i walk home frm dover mrt listening to 93.3FM
after that i jus slack at home till he sae he is ready to go for dinner
met waiwah along the way while i was gg to the 189 bus stop
and we chatted for a while before she went home for dinner
waited for him and saw 189 went pass me.lolx
then finally saw him.
he pleaded for long cus he dun wanna go c doc..even pull my shirt sleeve..
that was childish..lolx XD
then on the bus still the same la
bt i really drag him all the way there..and into the room
it wasnt tt scary wat..i guess his friends jus scared him la
before tt i saw wee may..she was waving to me outside the clinic
after tt went to met kel and ttc for dinner
went to famosa to have ban mian
i was sharing with kel cus i ate with jiawen at 4pm
i had 4 meals yesterdae lor
breakfast at ard 10 plus close to eleven
then lunch my mum bought prawn mee..at ard 12
i ate a little..still full
then 4pm i ate with jiawen
while walking there..i called kun and c if she is able to come and join us
then i complain to her and got tickled by him la!! so evil
guess wat..i pass my phone to him and kun screamed at him
thks kun..love u!
dinner was shared with kel
and was forced to drink honey lemon cus of my cough which lasted for weeks
i pleaded for long before i get to drink the cold one..
after tt went home..and jie was back!
the tv was down again
and guess wat..i said a magical sentence then there is image alr
was really amazing i tot
then todae the tv went back to the bad mode agn
and i tried using the magic sentence..it really works
at first..no sound..then after tt the sound came in..lolx
really funny..my sis jus laugh..lolx
okies..i shall be off.got so many things to do..bbies.
btw..happy birthdae tommy!

fashionUwant wishhed*
1:13 PM

Thursday, May 04, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAE ER JIE!!!
wow..this mth seems to have alot of babbies..
seems that i have to dig a hole in my wallet alr..
all so close to me.nvms..its ok:)
im coughing real badly
and have been doing that for the past two daes
which i slept like 2am?
cus i was coughing so badly that it jus wun stop la
and the thing is that my cough syrup is alr finished.
and i dun wish to buy it agn..jus doesnt taste good
hahas.. this two daes had alot of fun with my class
and yesterdae i had to make a stupid model for IDEAS
really crack my brain cells..use up all my neurons alr
no more grey matter..hahas
i miss bio suddenly..
bt my bio notes are nt with me:(
anyways...todae i dint really have appetite for lunch
bt i try to finish one bowl of fish kuay teow
if nt i noe someone will go after me like the dae before agn
jus thk goodness there is some excuse
if nt i will get spoon feeding for dinner:P
im really nt in mood to eat anything
haix.. todae we got two hrs break
then slack in the library after lunch with the guys plus jiawen
lols.the guys so bad..esp ceyang..
went to prank call ayu..desarie and others.
bt it was really very funny
then my new kor was making his model in the library..quite cute la
my class guys are funny at times.. bt i still prefer peeps in foursix
then after that we had IDEAS
i presented my drawings..and model..lols
and the tcher actually complement it..
was quite shock cus i thought i did the wrong thing.
anyways..its over!
went to meet jenifer at the dover mrt to go for choir
miss one bus and waited for long to take another
i saw my pri one friend..i nt sure if he still can recognise me
bt i do noe his name is call kevin..hahs..he din really change tt much
saw the choir uniform todae..new one
its PINK..OMG
tis is the first time i hate pink so much
as in nt the colour bt its nt suitable for them to wear
looks funny la..even guys are choosing that colour
summore is silky kinda material..lolx
bt its ok la.they got outer coat..so nt so bad
bt i tink the gown for the gers shld modify a little
it jus look too plain to me..and i gave some suggestions to ms lim
then went up for choir
i cant really reach the high part todae..cus i will cough wen i sung it
its damn bad..damn out of tune..arghs
i dun like my voice now
then went home and ate some porridge cus i no appetite la
bt i promise someone i nid to take it so...haix
tml lessons start at one eh..got makeup lor
PACC summore..i hate accounts.
jus dunno wat the tcher is saeing
i told alfred abt it..hahas
saeing its alien language
guess wat he said.. learn it in an alien way!
o..he's frm accountancy..hahas.. my MI friend
then got MOB again!!!
after that im meeting kel to go town get smt
then i have to drag a silly boy to go c doctor cus he refuses to go for the past two daes
and ive been threatening him..muhahaha
and then have dinner!
yebbies..mum is working till tml..haix.
okies..long entry..
i wanna sleep le..hopefully i can:)
bbies.

fashionUwant wishhed*
11:59 AM

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAE BEN!!!
lols..i still dunno wen can i pass u ur present
anyways..jus a greeting here
yesterdae had a fun time out with kel and mund
mund was afraid of me gg alone cus of my lbp prob.
hahas. might jus faint anywhere
yea..those guys are late..and i waited at the mrt
was so hot and i was like perspiring
headed off to bugis to shop for presents.
went in and out of the wallet shop.hahas
then walk ard..
went to bought a chicken little softtoy for my sis
her bdae is this thurs marh
hahas.then of course...i bought ben's present
its a pain ok... bt nvms..
kel and mund were so bad in the shop lor..
keep telling the salesger things..untrue facts!
anyways..i still got 2 more presents to settle
and that have to wait till i get more money first
this two present really empty my wallet
and i jus hope my atm card arrive soon
fly to me!!! cus i need cash!
yebs..then i went home to watch the concert for may dae
then sis came back with goodies.
that biscuit frm xuan hao jiu jie hun
the very very nice packaging one..got butterfly box one
it cost ard 40 bucks lehs..bt sis got it for free cus she requested it
her wedding package is settled..and ive got a dress or shld it be a gown:)
i gave her the bdae present..and she was so surprise that she went to show bernard kor:P
hahas..and she finally bring her banana home cus she scared i will eat it up wen im hungry at nite
-
todae went to sch as usual
hmms..stats we were using computer..nth much la
then i was chatting with my sis during break time
cus of the key incident which took place at my hse last nite
one set of keys frm the drawer was gone
and we went all ard to search for it
till cant find it then we wanna add one more key.. to the lock
and guess wat..the key was found in my dad's shorts tis morning wen mum took the laundry out
waste our time man..
breaktime i ate at foodcourt 4..although its air con..bt its still warm
then went back for econs tutorial
i was grp with the guys agn..lols
abel sebestian hanming and yujiang
after tt went for accounts lecture
i really dun understand accs leh..
and poor edwin was trying to get me to understand some concepts
bt really sry.im like so stupid lor
shall go and brush up..I MISS A-MATHS!!!
hehes..after that i walk home alone cus the bus fare is really a pain..
i miss students fare as well..
shall go off now
i still got lotsa tuts to do..bbies.

fashionUwant wishhed*
6:54 PM

Monday, May 01, 2006

fashionUwant wishhed*
1:40 AM

jus finished my tutorial for econs
still got PACC and STATS to do
n IDEAS as well..so much.
haix..wen holidaes..i tink of schooling
wen schooling..i thought of hols
it jus cant be balanced
now listening to kiss goodbye
the song that hidayat always sing in class.lols
jus now had a conference over the phone with kel and mund
tml going to get presents for may babies
unfortunately..i cant get much
cus im cash tight..my atm card hasnt arrive
wen my pay is alr in my bank.
so have to make us of the allowance i have first
gg out with kel and mund tml..hehe
then im coming home at one to watch tv.
jus now dinner was great
we had it at queenstown cus mum is deciding on the tv we r buying
had stingray, kangkong, clams and small sotong..
i noe i shldnt be eating tis cus im still recovering frm cough and sore throat
and my fever has jus recovered
bt the food is real tempting
accidentally swollowed an ice cube jus now
nearly choked..bt the ice can melt
so im fine now
i pretty much wanna watch that cao ge's performance
bt who is gg to spare me a ticket..boohoo
jiawen got hers alr:(
anyways..its late now..i better go and sleep or i will be late tml:)
heh..gudnites to everyone..
and thks to kun who send me a gdnite sms jus now..sweet dreams

~althoughlifeseemsemptywithoutuiwillstillstaystrong~

fashionUwant wishhed*
1:00 AM