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Thursday, May 25, 2006

yesterdae i had a nap in the afternoon cus i was damn tired
i set my alarm to 7pm
then wen i woke up..i jump..i felt v paranoid..
i dunno how to describe in words
i guess im really too stress with everything
guess wat i did. i quickly fold my blanket
then run to the toilet in the kitchen and on the light
before tt i pass by my parents room and found dad there
and i was tinking..y isnt he working todae..issit tt he din work up
then i started running ard the hse for my mum
and run back to my parents room and on the light of tt toilet as well
and then my dad was asking me wat i m doing..
and y is the light of the toilet in the kitchen on
till then i realise that it was night time and not daetime
m i really too stress??
or issit becos i really have so many upsetting things inside me
i really panick like siao cus i thought i will be late for sch as im meeting the rest at 8am
and i forget to call abel up also
arghs..enough of it..im really like a crazy mad woman now
i hate my life :'(
how i wish i wasnt born..
then i wun live in this world of sadness
and i jus dunno y i like to bottle things up on my own too
its jus my unique way of doing things.
so after wat happen yesterdae i went to study for my econs test which is todae
watch some tv to calm myself down
and had dinner at 9pm
dint really eat much cus im nt in mood
after tt i chiong econs till 12 plus wen my mum come home
and i slept till 6.40am todae
i was pretty lazy to get up.and i dialled many times abel's number
gave up and then wen to wash up and bathe
then call him again and wake him up finally
i guess i dialled his no. alot of times todae
really piggy!! lols..i hope u dun c tis
then rush off to sch and im the first to reach
studied econs since there is nth i culd do
dewei came and then follow by hanming and desarie
bt we dun have labtops or anything to start with
waited and waited for tt abel to come bt he din
ceyang and jiawen came along
then edwin too..
i was yawning and feeling v sleepyand i asked kind edwin to help me get coffee frm the foodcourt
then went for ITAB class
abel greeted good morning to me n the rest..wah..
so EARLYYYthen started lesson..
todae's one still ok..
early break and we went to foodcourt 4 for lunch
had carrot cake..then discuss abt the concept fan cus our grp haven finish
and econs i panicked alot and damn stress cus we haven finish our project
rushed to the library to finish up during the 2 hrs break
we manage to finish in time
went for IDEAS for the presentation
i felt so tense up cus its a formal presentation
wen it finally finish..my tension wasnt any better
cus i still got econs test
then went to T2165 for our exam venue
did the test and i guess i screw up some parts
wasnt really in good mood then
my mood worsen wen the bus is so damn slow
it took me ard 15 mins frm dover to my hse there la
traffic jam..arghs....really dampens my mood now
i dun care..tml im gg to sleep till late late then get up
im loosing sleep..insomia..its really torturing..
i hate this kinda feeling
im like a panda now..pmsing..moodless.
i skipped choir todae cus i have my econs test
i wonder how the practice is..

i broke my heart
for every gain
to taste the sweet
i face the pain

this is frm one moment in time..
one of the songs we performing in june 24th
arghs..im gg to complain alot wen it comes to my the other diary
i really hate my life now..
i felt so stress..more stress than o levels
i dun like tt feeling at all:'(

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7:38 PM