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Saturday, May 20, 2006

im full frm dinner at beautyworld
i dunno y i notice like im eating lesser and lesser everydae
culd it be tt the food doesnt interest me anymore
or culd it be tt im jus down for the time being
one thing i noe is that i will definitely have weight loss if tis continues
and im like now 42kg.. which is alr considered skinny
ive never fall below that before..as in wen im 1.67m tall
so i hope i wun loss weight cus its jus so hard to gain them back
bt really i do get full v easily now
like yesterdae..6 plates of sushi culd alr fill me..
its really too little.. i guess on other daes i culd go up to like 8 or 9
then breakfast i had a small packet of milk plus half a pc of plain bread
i culdnt believe that i jus ate half a pc now
lunch i sorta skip cus i din really eat much at MI
i only had the kachang puteh, one cup of coke float and a malt candy
thats all ok.. and i din feel any hungryness inside me
dinner i thought i will eat more
in the end is jus one small plate of rice with some other dishes
i can always eat until like i can even help my mum finish up her rice if she cant
and half a cup of sugar cane juice actually make me bloated
i thought of binge eating bt i guess i culdnt do it
im really cutting down on my food now..
intensive loss of appetite
and i skip dinner yesterdae nite..
im feeling so tired nowadaes
so many tutorials..test..and idea project
stress level building up
i wuld go crazy any moment if this continues
im even stresser than having o levels now
and i really culdnt fall asleep..
even if i can..i will wake up exceptionally early
like 7am or 8am
like todae i plan to sleep till 10.30am
then i wake up like 8 plus
time really past so slowly todae
i got flare up doing the accounts tuts
cus i noe my answers doesnt tally..
the thing doesnt balance..and i dunno where i got wrong
i really feel like banging my head on the wall wen i entered the lift jus now
and i wish to erase part of my memories so that i wun tink any further
maybe ive really made a wrong choice abt gg to MI todae
i shld have stayed at home
im really really tired.....mentally and physically
i may collaspe any moment..
and stupid lbp pls stop haunting me wen im alr in my weakest state
i wish everything culd jus end now........

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